Going to 26
Phew... in a few days, I'm turning 26. Yay. I do not feel excessive anxiety as I did last year, though in the first month I channeled my anxiety to the Japan trip. When I'm 25, lots of things are changing, and I need to adapt to it, making me cry a lot this year. I knew these would come, but I just couldn't help to cry them out.
For 26, I do not have any expectations. I guess it would be steadier, nothing would change drastically. It would be a calm (but not relaxing) stream of river. My friends are getting things, I don't know what would I have next year. In this miserable condition due to the pandemic, anything new and refreshing would make me very grateful. I wish I could travel again next year.
Looking back at 25, I am also grateful to celebrate it with semi-solo traveling to Japan, where I can 'pamper' myself before going through the wild. The wild itself is wild wild. I am also grateful I had chances to travel to Japan and Bali in August, and Jogja in December with BC. Another gratitude is also addressed to the chance of WFH due to the pandemic (it's more like a blessing in disguise). I wish I could WFH until the pandemic is over or until everyone got vaccinated, so it is safe to commute. Another blessing given this year is that I have someone to listen to all my anxiety, to soothe me, to pat me on my back, telling me everything will be alright. And I wish we can see each other this year.
Ah... you know what, after five months staying at home, I'm getting very bored lately. Usually, I'm going to somewhere in August. But this year... it's hard to go anywhere. The feeling of emptiness, lack of anticipation to vacations creeped in, and worsened these past weeks. Thankfully, I have two agendas this weekend haha. At least I'm going out.
I wanna be stronger. Pray for me.
For 26, I do not have any expectations. I guess it would be steadier, nothing would change drastically. It would be a calm (but not relaxing) stream of river. My friends are getting things, I don't know what would I have next year. In this miserable condition due to the pandemic, anything new and refreshing would make me very grateful. I wish I could travel again next year.
Looking back at 25, I am also grateful to celebrate it with semi-solo traveling to Japan, where I can 'pamper' myself before going through the wild. The wild itself is wild wild. I am also grateful I had chances to travel to Japan and Bali in August, and Jogja in December with BC. Another gratitude is also addressed to the chance of WFH due to the pandemic (it's more like a blessing in disguise). I wish I could WFH until the pandemic is over or until everyone got vaccinated, so it is safe to commute. Another blessing given this year is that I have someone to listen to all my anxiety, to soothe me, to pat me on my back, telling me everything will be alright. And I wish we can see each other this year.
Ah... you know what, after five months staying at home, I'm getting very bored lately. Usually, I'm going to somewhere in August. But this year... it's hard to go anywhere. The feeling of emptiness, lack of anticipation to vacations creeped in, and worsened these past weeks. Thankfully, I have two agendas this weekend haha. At least I'm going out.
I wanna be stronger. Pray for me.
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