How to Get My Freedom

It's agonizing to see my adventorous passion and potention trapped by permission. I love travelling. I always have that euphoria when I wanna go to somewhere far. I always have that euphoria when I can carry a carrier on my back. I always have that euphoria when I have a long-distance train ticket on my hand. I always have that euphoria when I am away from home.

In fact,
I seldom feeling those euphoria.

The only, ONLY problem is my permission. I cannot get it unless it is an institution who 'takes' me.

Idk why they do it. They never tell. They couldnt tell.

Therefore, I make several possibilities to be able to travel far, quenching my thirst of seeing the wor

1. Marrying someone who likes travelling early.
I'm gonna marry him right after graduation. Then we'll have a wanderjahr, a year full of travelling. I'll have a 'legal partner' to do the deed - travelling, indeed.

But........ should I trade my 'freedom' in order to have another freedom?

2. Academically going abroad, or somewhere far away from Bogiong Grande.

So that I need to stay somewhere far away from home. I can live alone. I can goooo anywhere I want without they know. I can hike a mountain, camping in a beach, travelling for two weeks, or a month, or two month, or as long as I want!

But I'll miss my good friends here :")

3. Talk.
But I'm pessimistic I could unlock it.




I really really dont know. I can stand all of their orders but this one. It makes me mad. Rage. Hurt.
People say that I'm strong. And I feel it too. But they weaken me. They make me feel weak. I dont wanna be weak.

Ugh.